Thursday, July 26, 2007

I WANT TO BE A MALLARD!!!!

i want to be the mallard!!what about you...

okay have you ever seen something and your mind just went in hundred directions but all your thought s came to the same ending..let me explain...i live on a lake lot and many times i love to go out and watch the ducks..i see them every day..i love to watch the sunrise..but this day was different..see..i saw a flock of white ducks and one mallard..he was so odd looking ..hanging out with these 7 white ducks..my mind thought..isn't it fitting..in life..don't we all feel like the odd one out from time to time..but as i watched..i noticed..the"gang" white ducks could have cared less..they accepted him..odd ball or not..his differnce made no differnce..then i gazed out and saw all the candian geese..over a dozen..they are so majestic..and regal..so grand..as i watched them..i noticed..they stayed together..they called out and more..of the same landed with them....the white ducks and one mallard tried to come over but the geese chased them away..so natsy like..i dare you>>so fitting..do you ever come across a group of people who think they are so better than you..and they won't even take the time to get to know you...it's sad..as i watched the whole scence in front of me..a life lesson unfolded ...i thought about how Jesus was so different when he walked this earth as a human and all the trials he went threw..standing out and all..and well i say..be diiferent..be yourself...love with all your heart..and if they won't let you in their little group..well sadly..it's their loss because you are someone really special..we are put on this earth to be a vessel..to show God's love and compassion..am i perfect'''no way!!!not even close..and i fail misserably every day..but i wake up each morning thankful to be alive and know i am here to make a differnece..to be used..and when i sleep at night..i pray to be used again....and again..so to all of you who don't quit fit into the "mold" of a group..i say stand up..stand out..and be proud..walk like Jesus...it's okay to be differnent..and to all of you who are in your own little klicks.and won't let others in..well i feel sorry..you may be not letting Jesus himself in..afterall..He is in all of us..remember!!!!!..well something to think about dear friend or those who read my blogs..i wish you the most amazing day(life)...try to awake each day and look at the beautiful sunrise..each day is a masterpiece..a gift drawn from God himself..no 2 are alike..and each so valuable...luv to all ..have a great day!!!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

1 strike..two..three..who's really the one out???hmm

okay..we all know the game of baseball...1,2,3,strikes your out...kinda like in life..we so many times try to put people and relationships in a box..okay..you can only hurt me 3 times..and well that's it..i mean really if you are honest with yourself..we give up on people far to easily...i've guilty..sadly there has been times..i too have played the game of life(baseball)..sadly i must say..but as i am getting older..i do try...it's so hard..our flesh eats at us..and we can give,,and give,,and there are some people who just take,,and take,,or even just don't care...but i am learning..i can't give up..see...if JESUS gave up on us where would we be ???i believe people come into our lives for a reason...what we do with it is in our hands..some are a pleasant memory..and sadly some just plain hurt..some even haunt us in our dreams..are they our thoughts??visions???or is GOD trying to tell us something..maybe something our flesh just won't let us admit....hmmm that just came out of no where..so bare with me...i just write...anyway...as many of you know..i do not have the best relationship with my dad...and well if it wasn't a law to love and obey our parents..well???i'm just being honest..the pain and hurt has been alot..and recently i was reminded by my child..you have to give people another chance.over and over...even if it hurts..JESUS did and still does..we are given new chances everyday...and who is to say one is differnet from another..or one person for that..so as i pondered what my child so kindly and gently reminded me..i realized i had to live the life i try so hard to help other realize...see it is easier to given help and to live what we know..so i allowed my dad to come..now no it was not some like wow!!!miracle..we are healed..but it was a begining..a step..we are both alittle older..wiser i hope??(smile) but it was a start...i think back when Jesus was questioned why He dined with the low lives(as they put it)..and i always remember. .
IF NOT ME..THAN WHO WOULD..WE ALL HAVE A TEACHABLE SPIRIT...WE ARE ALL OUR FATHER'S CHILDREN..NO ONE GREATER THAN ANOTHER..SEE HE LOVES US AS IF WE ARE THE ONLY ONE..
ohh how i long to love and foregive like that...now i am far from perfect..and i fail miserable everyday..but i am growing..and i don't want to play baseball(life like that) any more..and i hope dear friend i have helped you too..life is a game..there is a begining..a middle and an end...we can all finish victorious..if we keep JESUS... LORD OF OUR LIVES... i hope and pray you have...see...life is sooo precious....take a step into faith....and step out of your box..your comfort zone..and love peole for who they are and not for what you want to make them to be...it's that simple..... well...i gotta go...

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

THE GAME OF LIFE OR CHESS???YOUR CHOICE ....

OKAY DEAR FRIEND...WHERE DO I BEGIN......THE MOST ODD THINGS ARE GOING THREW MY HEAD..SEE IF YOU CAN MAKE HEADS OR TALES OF IT..I KNOW IT'S FOR SOMEONE...
DO YOU EVER FEEL LIKE YOU ARE LIVING THE LIFE OF A BOARD GAME..??? I MEAN REALLY..
OKAY THE GAME OF LIFE"" YOU GET IN A CAR AND TRAVEL AROUND THIS BOARD..DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL OR JUMP STRAIGHT INTO A CAREER..DO YOU HAVE KIDS??YES OR NO..HEY SOMETIMES EVEN TWINS!! WHICH ROAD DO YOU TRAVEL TO GO THREW THIS WHOLE GAME TO REACH THE END WITH REALLY ONLY ONE GOAL IN MIND..TO WIN!!! NO REAL LOGIC..IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT..IT'S LIKE LIVING IN A BOX!! OR SHOULD I SAY A GAME BOARD....IT'S MOSTLY SAFE..BUT IT'S GENERIC..
BUT SEE AT CHESS..IT TAKES TIME..SKILL..REAL THOUGHT..A CONCERTRATION..A DELIBERT (SPELLING..SORRY) MOVE..SEE..WE STILL WANT TO WIN..BUT EVERY MOVE MUST BE WELL THOUGHT OUT..TOO MUCH IS AT STAKE..AND IF WE ARE NOT CAREFUL WE CAN LOSE REAL BAD AND REAL FAST..OKAY..YOU CAN MOVE FORWARD..BUT ALSO SIDEWAYS..ISN'T IT FITTING..SEE SOMETIMES IN LIFE WE WANT SO BAD TO RUSH FORWARD TO GET TO THE FINISH(WINNING) LINE..BUT WE GET SIDE TRACKED..BUT SEE IT IS IN TIMES LIKE THESE WE LEARN..WE MUST STRATIZE..NOT IN A BAD WAY..BUT IN A WAY TO STAY ALIVE.....I GUESS WHERE I AM GETTING AT..IS DON'T SETTLE...DON'T LIVE IN THE BOX OR GAMEBOARD YOU THINK YOU MUST JUST TO FIT IN...TO BE SOMEONE YOU THINK EVERYONE WANTS YOU TO BE...LIFE IS LIFE..AND SOMETHING WONDERFUL IS WAITING FOR YOU..YEA..IT MAY TAKE AWHILE..BUT GUESS WHAT... YOU HAVE TO GO FOR IT!!MOVE..IT MAYBE SIDEWAYS OR FORWARD..BUT YOU HAVE TO TAKE A STEP OF FAITH AND MOVE!!!!IT WON'T JUST DROP INTO YOUR LAP..SEE SATAN WANTS US TO FAIL..AND HE PUTS SO MUCH CRAP IN OUR HEADS..DON'T FALL INTO HIS TRAP..YOU KNOW DEEP DOWN WHAT YOU WANT..AND I AM SO TRIED OF HEARING PEOPLE SAY THE LORD TOLD ME THIS AND THAT..I'M NOT SAYING HE DIDN'T BUT THINK ABOUT IT..IF IT WERE GOD..AND THEN BAMM IT DOESN'T WORK OR HAPPEN..SO WHAT... WAS GOD WRONG??NO..NO..I DON'T THINK SO..I MEAN REALLY THINK ABOUT IT..WHAT YOU THOUGHT WAS GOD TALKING TO YOU WAS PROBABLY YOUR OWN FLESH..GOD IS NEVER WRONG..SADDLY WE WANT SO BAD WE JUMP AND LEAP WITHOUT THINKING...SO I GUESS I AM SAYING IS MAKE EACH MOVE IN LIFE WITH A DETREMINDED APPROACH...WAIT..MAKE SURE ...DON'T LEAP..JUST FOR THE SAKE OF CATCHING UP TO OTHERS IN THE GAME OF LIFE..IN THE END WE WILL ALL FINISH..HOW WE FINISH IS IN OUR HANDS....I WANT TO INTRUST MINE INTO MY FATHER'S HANDS...HE'LL NEVER LEAD ME ASTRAY..WELL....I JUST HOPE SOMEONE TRULEY GETS THIS.....
LUV TO ALL...ENJOY LIFE MY FRIEND...ENJOY LIFE!!!SINCERELY, ANGELA HOWELL

Monday, July 23, 2007

HOWELL FAMILY VACATION!!!!..S.O.S.!!!!!.2007

OKAY..HAVE YOU EVER HAD HIGH HOPES OF EVERYTHING GOING JUST YOUR WAY AND THEN TOTALLY GETTIN BLOWN OUT OF THE WATER..WELL THIS WAS OUR FAMILY VACATION TRIP..MAN WHAT A TRIP IT WAS,,
FIRST..YOU SEE THIS IS PROBABLY OUR LAST TRIP AS A FAMILY IN AWHILE..ALICIA IS NOW 20..DEANNA 19..STEF..14 AND NICOLE WILL BE 13 ON THE 21ST..SO AS YOU CAN SEE POOR JOE MY HUSBAND OF 23 WONDERFUL YEARS IS NOW TRULY OUT NUMBERED AND CAN I SAY ESTROGEAN OVERLOAD..MOOD..MOOD..AND MOODY!!!
ANY WAY ALL WAS GREAT WE HEAD TO DESTIN BEACH FIRST...BEAUTIFUL WATER..WHITE SANDY BEACHES..DO I SAY BURN!!! POOR ALICIA AND JOE..THEY ARE SO WHITE..I DON'T REALLY THINK THEY MAKE A SUN- BLOCK FOR THEIR SKIN(SORRY)BUT THEY WERE REAL TROOPERS..WE GOT SKIM BOARDS..THEY ARE BOARDS THAT RIDE THE SHORE LINE AT THE WATERS EDGE..DO I SAY FUNNY..ESPECIALLY DEANNA ..BUT HEY I GIVE THEM EFFORT...AND WE HAD FUN..
WELL THEN WE GOT A HOTEL AND HEADED TO DISNEY THE NEXT DAY..WELL ABOUT AN HOUR IN TO CAR RIDE DEANNA'S CAR BROKE DOWN IN THE MIDDLE OF A MERGE LANE FOR TRUCKS TO GO TO A WEIGH STATION..YES..IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HIGH WAY!!YIKES..WELL WE FINALLY GOT A TOW TRUCK AND JOE TOLD ME TO TAKE THE GIRLS IN MY CAR..OKAY..5 GIRLS IN MY LITTLE SUV BABY WANNA BE KIA SPORTAGE..DO I SAY FUNNY...NOT..BECAUSE THEN MY AIR CONDTION BROKE...OKAY OUR CARS ARE FAIRLY NEW..MINE A 2005 AND DEE'S A 2003..NOW AT THIS TIME I KNOW BAD THINGS JUST HAPPEN IN LIFE BUT SERIOUSLY..THIS IS GETTING BAD TO WORSE..WELL THEN WE FIND OUT THE CAR CAN NOT BE FIXED TIL WED..AND IT BROKE ON SUNDAY..SO POOR JOE IS STUCK IN A TOWN WITH ONE PLACE TO EAT AND HAS TO WALK TO A WALMART 5 MILES ALWAY..THERE ARE NO RENT ACARS LEFT AND NO TAXI'S COME THAT FAR OUT OF TOWN..AND TO TOP IT OFF HE ONLY GOT ONE OF HIS BAGS..SO HE'S MISSING ALOT OF HIS CLOTHES..I.E,,SHIRTS..UNDIES..ECT..GO FIGURE THAT ONE...
WELL..THEN MY BEAUTIES FELT SO BAD FOR ME THEY BOUGHT ME A BEAUTIFUL CROSS BUT WHEN WE OPENED IT IT WAS BROKE..AWHHH..BUT I CAN GLUE IT AND IT WAS SO KIND OF THEM..SO ..WE TRIED TO OUR BEST TO HAVE FUN..WE WENT TO DINSEY,,WATER TYPONE..MGM..UNIVERSAL BOTH PARKS..BLIZZARD BEACH..AND ANIMAL KINGDOM..NOW NO I AM NOT RICH..SEE I WAS BLESSED..I HAD BOUGHT 3 DAY HOPPER TICKETS..AND IT HAD 3 FREE PARKS EXTRA..BUT WHEN MY TICKETS CAME IN I GOT AN UPGRADE OF 5 DISNEY PARKS AND 4 FREE EXTRA PARKS..AT NO EXTRA CHARGE..THANK YOU JESUS!!!HE'S SO AWESOME..
ANY WAY WE ENJOYED THE GOOD AND THE BAD..WE ALSO WENT TO 2 DINNER SHOWS..YES..I EVEN GOT ONE AT BUY GET ONE FREE PRICE..THE PRIATE ONE WAS THE BEST..ALICIA HAD HER FACE PAINTED WITH A BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY DESIGN AND AS SOON AS WE GOT SAT SHE WAS PICKED BY ONE OF THE ACTORS TO HELP IN THE SKIT..THEN LATER ALL FOUR GIRLS GOT PICKED AGAIN FOR MORE INNERACTIONS..PRICELESS..DEFINETLY THE BEST PART OF THE SHOW AT THE END WE DANCED TO OLDIES..WELL WE DANCED AND STEF AND NICOLE WERE EMBARRASSED BY US(SMILE)..PRICELESS!!!WELL THE WEEK FINALLY ENDED AND WELL..IT WAS TRULY A VACATION TO REMEMBER..BUT THREW IT ALL I WAS REMINDED HOW BLESSED I AM..AND THAT THIS MAY NOT ALWAYS GO EXACTLY HOW I PLAN OUT..AND WELL WE HAVE TO STRIVE FORWARD AND MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT..YA KNOW...ON OUR LAST DAY WE STILL HAD 2 DISNEY DAYS AND 2 FREE PARKS LEFTON OUR PASSES..WE S A FAMILY DECIDED TO GIVE THEY AWAY TO A FAMILY..WE PRAYED..AND WAITED..FINALLY ABOUT 9PM OR SO WE WERE AT OUR HOT TUB RELAXING AND WE CAME ACROSS A FAMILY OF 5..BINGO..WE KNEW IT..SEE WE ALL CAN REMEMBER WHEN OUR FAMILY WAS SIMLAR TO THAT FAMILY AND WELL IT WAS THEM..SO WE GAVE THEM OUR TICKETS..THE KIDS FACES WERE PRICELESS..BUT WHAT WAS EVEN BETTER WAS SEVERAL PEOPLE WERE AROUND AND THEY SAW FIRST HAND GOD'S LOVE AND GRACE THREW US..THEY DID NOT KNOW US FROM EVE..ALL THEY SAW WAS GENEROUSITY..EVEN IN THEIS CRAZY WORLD WE LIVE IN..WE TOLD THEM OF GOD'S GRACE WITH BLESSING US WITH THESE TICKETS AND WE WANTED TO PASS IT ON..HMMM..DO YOU THINK HE HAD IT PLANNED THAT WAY??I DO..EVERYTHING HAPPENEDS FOR A REASON..HOW WE DEAL WITH IT IS IN OUR HANDS..SO THAT WAS OUR AMAZING 2007 FAMILY VACATION..!!!AND OH YES..WHEN WE GOT HOME WE HAD A CHECK FOR EXACTLY THE BALANCE FOR STEF AND NICOLE'S MONEY NEEDED FOR THEIR MISSION TRIP TO MEXICO...TO THE TEE!!!YES!!GOD IS AWESOME!!!
..I KNOW MANY WHO READ MY BLOGS MAY NOT HAVE A ONE ON ONE REALATIONSHIP WITH JESUS..OR EVEN BELIEVE IN GOD..BUT I CAN SAY THIS FOR SURE..HE BELIEVES IN YOU AND LOVES YOU..HE'S SUCH A GENTLEMEN AND IS JUST WAITING FOR YOU TO REALIZE HE'S BEEN WITH YOU ALONG....I PRAY YOU ASK HIM TO BE YOUR LORD AND SAVIOR..I PROMISE YOUR LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME..I PROMISE!!!
LUV TO ALL AND THE VERY BEST OF THIS SUMMER.
.ENJOY LIFE...
SINCERLY MRS. ANGIE

a life lesson learned..

Monday, July 23, 2007
WOMEN..WOMEN...WOMEN...AND LIFES LESSONS Current mood: cheerful
OKAY..I MAY GO ALITTLE A.D.D. ON YOU BUT MY MIND IS GOING ALL OVER THE PLACE WITH THIS..I JUST HOPE SOMEONE GETS IT...
WOMEN..OKAY NOW I AM A WOMAN AND I HAVE 4 DAUGHTERS..AGES 13..14..19..20..SO CAN YOU SAY ESTROGEAN OVERLOAD AT TIMES AND THEY ALL LIVE AT HOME AGAIN...THEY MOVE OUT AND COME BACK..BUT I DO LOVE HAVING THEM ALL HOME I MUST ADMITT..AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH MANY LADIES OF ALL AGES AS FRIENDS..BUT THIS WEEKEND MY EYES WERE COMPLETLY OPENED TO A NEW WORLD ..NEW WOMEN AND SADLY ..THEY COULD EASILY HAVE BEEN ME...
LET ME EXPLAIN..SEE EVERY FRIDAY WE FEED THE INNER CITY DREAM CENTER IN B.R. IT'S A SMALL CINDERBLOCK BUILDING WHICH WE USE AS A CHURCH AND OUTREACH CENTER.. AND ON FRIDAY WOMEN COME FOR A LADIES BIBLE STUDY AND A VENT SESSION IS WHAT I LIKE TO CALL IT..SEE ALL THESE LADIES ARE UNIQUE YET VERY SIMILAR...SEE SOMETIMES WE CHOOSE THE WRONG PATH IN LIFE..SOMETIMES LIFE JUST HAPPENEDS..AND SOMETIMES WE ARE GEOGRAPHY PLACED IN IT.. ..AND WELL THIS FRIDAY WAS AMAZING..SEE I AM A LISTENER.I TRY TO ENCOURAGE..TO LIFT UP..I TRY TO LOOK AT THE GOOD IN THINGS,,,BUT I ALSO LOVE TO GIVE ME ADVISE(SMILE)SOME TIMES GOOD AND YES SADDLY SOMETIMES..WELL IT'S MY OPINION..AND IT MAY NOT ALWAYS BE AS GOOD ONE MAY THINK..BUT ON THIS DAY I WAS STRETCHED..AND WOW..WHAT I LEARNED..SEE WE HAD ALOT LADIES COME OUT AND NOT ALOT OF PRAYER PARTNERS..SO MS.ALYCE ASKED SOME OF US TO STEP UP AND INTERVENE..OKAY...I HAVE LIVED AN INTRESTING LIFE AND FAILED OVER AND OVER..BUT NOTHING WOULD PREAPRE ME FOR WHAT I WAS TO ENDURE..WOW..AS THESE PRECIOUS LADIES SPOKE(VENTED) I SAW FIRST HAND SOMETHING CLOSE TO WHAT JSUS HIMSELF SAW WHEN HE WALKED OUR EARTH..WE AS HUMANS ALWAYS THINK WE KNOW HOW ROUGH LIFE CAN BE FOR SOME PEOPLE BUT TRUELY UNTIL I STOPED AND LISTENED WITH MY EARS AND MY HEART I HAD NO CLUE..AS OUR SESSION CONTINUED I SAW WOMEN WHO HAD LAYERS OF SKIN(EMOTIONS) SLOWLY PEEL OFF..BY THE END ALOT HAD BEEN RELIEVED..SURRENDURED..WE LEFT IT RIGHT THERE IN THE RUN DOWN LITTLE CINDERBLOCK BUILDINH USED AS A CHURCH...BUT TO US..IT WAS CHURCH AND THE HOLY SPIRIT WAS THERE..IT WAS OBVIOUS..MANY WE STIRRED..NOW NO PROPABLY NOT EVERYONE WAS TOUCHED..BUT HOW AMAZING IT WAS TO KNOW THAT ONE PERSON CAN STOP AND SERVE AND LISTEN AND REALLY MAKE AN IMPACT IN A LIFE..NOW I KNOW WRITTING THIS FOR PRAISE..WEE LOOK AT ME..I AM WRITING THIS BECAUSE ALL TO MANY TIMES WE SEE PVERTY AND HURT AND WE SAY OHH THAT'S WHAT CHURCH IS FOR..WELL I AM NO PASTOR OR PREACHER..BUT I AM A CHILD OF GOD AND IT IS SAID WE MUST GO OUT AND BE DISCIPLES IN HIS NAME ..SO I ASK YOU HAVE YOU STEPPED OUT..MAYBE NOT THE INNER CITY BUT TO SOME ONE AT WORK..AT SCHOOL A NEIGHBOR..??AFRAID YOU WONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY...IT'S ALL GOOD ..I FIND IN TIMES LIKE THESE..IT'S BEST I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ..BECAUSE THEN I KNOW IT'S NOT ME BUT THE HOLY SPIRIT MOVING IN ME..NOW I KNOW SOME OF YOU MAY NOT HAVE A INTIMATE RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS..OR EVEN BELIEVE IN HIM ..BUT I WILL LEAVE YOU WITH THIS..
HE IS ALWAYS WITH YOU
AND EVEN WHEN YOU FORSAKE HIM..
HE'S THERE..
EVER PRESENT..
JUST WAITING..
WAITING FOR YOU TO ASK HIM TO BE LORD OF YOUR LIFE..AND WELL..
NO MATTER WHAT ONE'S BELIEFS ARE..
THERE ARE HURTING PEOPLE OUT THERE..
AND IF YOU HAVE EARS TO HEAR..
YOU CAN MAKE A DIFFERNCE.!!!!!!
WELL I JUST WANTED TO BLOG MY EXPEREICE..I WISH YOU THE VERY BEST DEAR FRIEND..AND THE MOST WONDERFUL LIFE EVER..IF YOU ARE IN B.R. LA STOP BY HEALING PLACE CHURCH ON HIGHLAND ROAD...WE'D LOVE TO SEE YA..
SINCERLY MS. ANGIE